"Welcome" to our Cancer Support Forum, although I am clearly sorry that your situation means that you need to join us. I have copied your post into the "Coping and Support" Forum where it should be more visible to forum members who may not monitor this section.
I do not know where you live in France and it may be that there is a CSF group near to you. Have a look in the CSF Contacts Forum for details, telephone nos. and e-mail addresses. Failing that, do contact CSF National on either their National Helpline no. - 05 45 89 30 05 - or by e-mail - firstname.lastname@example.org. They will put you in contact with one of our members who will be able to give support (both emotional and practical) by phone or e-mail.
I have also drawn the attention of our trained members to your post and I very much hope that you will receive support in this diffcult time.